For many many years I had a lot of insecurities, from talking to people to my own physical appearance.
I have this faux fur coat. And it’s definitely statement piece in my closet, I had it for years but never wore it. Because when I do I feel like everyone is staring at me. And I start to feel paranoid and uncomfortable… And something changed in my mind… I turned on “fuck it” mode. And started wearing that coat with confidence. And the most crazy thing happened. Everyone started to compliment me, and tell me how beautiful I look with that coat… I realized that it’s not the coat that makes me feel uncomfortable it’s my perception and my self doubt. Once I got rid of that I feel more than comfortable with that coat, and more confident.
Also I never posted anything on this blog before sending for a quick check to my sister, because she speaks very good in English, and English is not my first language. I felt insecure about posting blog posts. I was afraid of failure and not being perfect. But I realized that it’s better to at least try (and fail) then sit and wonder “what would happen if I would do what I truly want to do”. I know I’m not perfect but I’m trying my best. And it feels better than constantly doubting.
When I understood that it’s my life it’s my choices and everything I do with my life should worry only me, great things started to happen to me. People don’t put all of their attention to what I am doing so why not just do whatever I want to do and if someone will approve – great. If not- just don’t stress about it. I realized that you won’t be perfect no matter how hard you work. look at Beyonce, she’s one of the most successful artist of all time but she still has a lot of haters. What if Beyonce would try to please everyone? I bet no one even would know who she is because she would be to afraid of failure and wouldn’t even try.
I guess my point is that if you have a dream and passion you should fulfill that dream no matter how stupid it seems or what people think of that. You have to put a shield on, shake off all insecurities, excuses and doubts and just do it. Because when you will start doing what you want and truly believe in yourself – you will see how happy it makes you feel and later you won’t even notice haters and you will lose all your insecurities and doubts. You will improve and you will feel more motivated to do better.
Keep dreaming and fulfilling your dreams!